My Baby Angel.

Got this from one of my friend. Juz wanna share them wif everyone. Some of them suits the situation i am now. Hope u enjoy them ;p

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or
Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.
Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.

Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.*

What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?*
What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?*
What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)*
What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them? *
What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?*

So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life,

I look up to you, respect you, truly cherish you , most of all I CARE about friends

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It is not dat I don’t want to work part time to support my self
I don’t want b delivery rider anymore, risking my life
I don’t want 2 work in factory anymore, 1stly no life
2ndly, not enough sleep for school den sleep in class n cannot focus
even though this will help me stable my financial status.
I don’t want 2 work at night pubs, clubs or even any f&B.
1stly I have to handle beers n stuff
n mix around wif weird people n I know the pay is good.
But its HARAM. Im particular wif dat.
As for f&B the pay is like u-think-I-am-secondary-school-student.
So damn low pay.
Applied for MacDelivery Operator still no news.
Recommended by friend be a tuition tutor.
Gd idea but am I gd enuf? N it is juz not my type of job.
This job need patience n I noe im not capable of doing dat.
What else can I do?
Debt n fines all over me.
Projeks n assignment n exams waiting for me.
STRESS!!!!!
I cant keep using $ from friends. They too nid them.
Sell my bike? Hahz.. imagine selling ur best friend. Next option plz
Get $ from my parents? 4get it. I will get the same answer as usual
U SO BIG BOY OREDI STILL ASK FOR MONEY. GO FIND UR OWN MONEY. N gimme all kinds of names n looks on their face.
It is not dat I don’t want. They don’t understand my situation.
Feel like running away from everything.
But dat is not the best solution. N I know It well.
How I wish I did not have to go back to sch n work all dis while.
Should I call it Quit?
No I shouldn’t. Yes I should. No I shouldn’t. Yes I should.
No I shouldn’t. Yes I should. No I shouldn’t. Yes I should.
No I shouldn’t. Yes I should. No I shouldn’t. Yes I should.

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I dont know wat happen to my life now.

Suddenly feel so lonely, So helpless

So lazy, So restless.

I'm not really sure wat im doing

Wat i wanted

From the outside im cheerful

But deep down inside, im really feeling down.

Especially if i alone all by myself.

Wat is happening to me

Nobody der for me

Not sure is anybody really, really, really care

Everytime i sit alone at my fav spot

staring at the sea

Tears roll down my cheek

N i dont know wat i need

N i dont know why

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Today 24th July 2008. Happy 21st Birthday to Saufi!

May all ur dreams come true.

Yesterday, all Je m'appelle memberz gather at civic wudlans

juz to make a surprise b'dae bash for Saufi at 2300hrs.

The plan was to bring along Yani, Saufi's new 'friend' along to celebrate it wif us.

We end the gathering at 1pm.

Anywae, before this gathering Julie as usual wen to my place to teach my sis tuition.

The irritating thing is that my mum kept calling Julie as Diyanah, my 'lost'ex girlfriend.

I think most of u all knew bout dat oredi.

Cant my mum tell the difference between Julie n Diyanah??

Julie is Julie. Diyanah is Diyanah.

Diyanah is no longer in my life.

Settled??!!

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It all started wif Julie informing us that she n her family decided to go holiday at KL. After some problems, dey end up only Julie n her sis, Ida going only. So all of us decided to join them der.
We set off on 11 July 08 at 9am. Go Larkin to get on our coach to KL. Our coach didnt arrived on time at 1pm as scheduled due to some problems. So another coach is allocated to us. Guess wat? Dis coach is full of FLIES.

Imagine a bus full of flies we got to bear for bout 4hrs. By the time we left Larkin it was oredi 2plus. In the meantime, Julie n Ida go KL by flight. It was Julie's 1st time on flight. Hope u njoys it. Aniwae, along the way almost reach KL, our coach breakdown. We got to transfer to another coach. We prefer the 2nd coach though as no flies to entertain. Reach KL arnd 6plus. We are damn late. We promise to meet Julie at 7.30pm. We quickly get on the train head to Masjid Jamek n check in our hotel. I unpack my stuff n quickly wen to meet Julie at the train station. It didnt take long. After 5mins of waiting finally Julie n Ida appear at the corner of my eye. I lead them to our hotel to meet the rest of the gang. After all finally settle down and change, we head to get our

dinner together and go for a karaoke session. It all end up almost 2am. Tired we went back our hotel and soon all was fast asleep.
Day2 was the most happening of all. We woke up at 11. Cant resist it, we went down n have our breakfast/lunch. Go n booked our coach tiket for 2moro back

home. Lucky for us, dey is enuf slot available for all of us. Den we meet Julie n Ida juz like yesterday n went back to hotel to check on those who r still asleep. Aniwae forget to tell. Julie n Ida stay at different hotel. Today's planning is simple. We gonna SHOP like mad. 1st we go Sungei Wang, den go Petaling St. We shop until we feel tired, hungry n we got the things we looking for. It was oredi 10pm. We go for our dinner which Hamza treat reluctantly due to certain reason. U all know rite. Den we all go back to hotel to lepak. Julie brought a bottle for those who 'drink'. I didnt, i drive. Haha.. Kalid, Fen got drunk and do silly things. Julie went tipsy dat night. Those who did not drink helps to calm n nurse the drunk. At bout 5am all 3 of them knockout.

I stay awake to watch on them. At 6.30 Julie regain her sense n went back to her hotel wif Ida. Khai n myself accompany them until they got a cab. I couldn't sleep yet. But i manage to close my eyes n when i woke up it was oredi 10am.

Accompany kalid n fen to do last minute shopp ing. Shop till 1plus rush back to hotel n pack our stuff. Check out at 2pm. Slowly we drag ourselves to get our lunch. Our coach is at 4pm. It was on time dis time. We reach S'pore at 10plus. We were too tired to go for a drink, so we go separate ways n went straight home.

p/s Next Trip BATAM or JAKARTA!!!

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Last Friday, my groupmates for Attraction Managment have to visit Singapore Discovery Centre for our project report. We were lost at first. We tot it is at Jurong East. But later we found out dat it is at Boon Lay sumwhere at SAFTI MI. we So Confident at Jurong. Overall i would say that the place is boring. Tot it would be as cool as science centre. So jeles my other frenz get to go science centre. The only fun part is dat I overheard sumone saying bout durian tree. So I n hafiz look at each other and straight went to look for the durian tree. Who knows we could bring back some durian or even dig it on the spot. We found the tree but there were no durians at the ground.

Den came the best part still on durians. We been craving this for so long. Been planning it one week in advance. We met at Geylang to get those yummy durians. We bought 9 of them in total. Kalid brought his car along so we stuff our durians in der. We gather at East Coast on one of the vacant BBQ pit. Spread out mat and dig open the durians and eat our lungs out. We eat until we satisfied. Eat like ders no tomorrow. We didnt take that long to empty those durian shell.

Den came the confession part. Finally i felt relieve letting go wats i been keeping for so long. I didnt regret though as we turn out being happy for each other.

Next up KL Trip guys. Get READY!!!

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Last Saturday was a day fully pack of activities for me. From early morning till late at night.Juz came back from work at 3am dat morning. Tak alik trus lepak pat umah sopi. Pai kul 8pagi. Kene gi report skola by kul 8.15. Kalo tak kene tinggal... Where we off to? SENTOSA. Yes our IRDD teacher Mr Raymond organize a field trip for us. A trip to Sentosa. We will be visiting the Sentosa Cove residential area and The Amara Sanctuary Resort. Erm.. Ders a lot to describe. Malas plak.. Juz view the pics and come out the words urself. Hahaha... Pictures paints a thousand words org katakan.
The whole ting end bout almost 2plus. Alik umah sopi lepak lagi. Masi tak cukop tdo. Penat jln2 plak tu. Anti 6.30 janji Julie n Oshin pat National Museum nak tgk open wayang cerita Bujang Lapok. Nak tau kul brape kita bgn tdo. 6.34pm. Tu pun aku tersadar biler Julie kol hp.

Mampos.. Sib baik Julie tak mengamuk. Hehe.. Sorie.. Cepat2 siap kuar pecut pai sana dlm kul 7. Da sampai sana nak tau apa. Julie n Oshin takde. Aku kol dorg ar. Wadduh.. Sempat dorg merayap dulu singgah Fort Canning berdua-duaan posing2 ambik gambar. Jeles nye aku.. Haha.. Paling kekek nye. Dorg tau gi sana tapi tak tau patah alik museum. Dorg salah trn tangga, sampai bawah je.. Teka dorg pat ne? Depan clarke Quay la.. Tul2 depan tu reverse bungee. Cian cik adik bedua nie. Sesat. Tak tau mcm ne nak patah alik museum. Tak kan

nak naik alik tu Fort Canning. Nak jln kaki alik jauh sak. By the time sampai Bujang pun da Berlapok. Sib baik ada 'hero' nie. Aku trus gi pick up dorg pat Funan. Julie da brani skit2 sey tumpang motor aku lagi. Dunt wori Julie. Dis time aku bawak pelan2. Aku paham it takes time to heal. Da pai museum cun2 cerita pun aru nak start. Genap kul 8. The atmosphere was awesome. Byk group of people take their time bentang tikar n duk ramai2 to tgk show tu sama2. Makcik2, pakcik2, dato, nenek, mak salleh, remaja, couples, friends mcm2 type of org leh nampak. I love it. Kalo ada lagi i dunt mind trn sana lagi.
Beh pas tu kita lepak esplanade. Meet up wif the rest. Biasa la our fav hangout spot. Especially julie n oshin. Da bobal, lepak2 lapar plak.. K aku n some of us gi Lau Pa Sat bungkus some badok and bawak alik esplanade. Kita badok ramai2 pat sana. Kalo korg tgk time kita gah mkn da mcm bangla2 aru alik keje sak. Hahaha... Da badok bobal2

jap dlm kul 3pagi gitu kita sume go separate ways. Aku kene anta Julie alik. As promise aku bawak pelan2 all the way to Punggol dari esplanade. 60km/h!!! My max for Julie's sake. Leh nampak the fear look at her face tapi aku cuba to bagi dia semangat. I did the damage, i want to recover it back. Alhamdulilah Julie slmt pai umah. Aku ingat nak lepak sorg2 dulu pikir2 penat nye pasal aku pun alik trus. Pai umah agak2 kul 5 gitu. Trus LEPAK... Tak bagi chance. Penat tapi happy.. Ders many things dat i achieve today.

Thursday Night as for malays we call it Malam Jumaat is known for its creepiness. That was wat happen to my usual bunch of friends and I when we gather at Sunplaza Park last Thursday Night.
We met each other at the stage area around 8plus. As usual we met n chat anything we like under the moon. Romantic huh.. There were also some youngster practising their skate boarding skills der. It reminds me of my youth days. While we were bz chatting away, our THREE girls decided to visit the toilet which is behind the stage. As we did not sense anything we remain at our 'plot' still admiring at those young skaterz. Minutes later we noticed that our THREE girls ran towards us looking panic and scared by the look on their faces. They told us that while they were in the toilet, they heard a soft cry voices of a female. Accompany with a soft moans. We, the THREE HEROES decided to check it out. We walk slowly towards the ladies toilet but before we could enter, we heard the same cry that was describe by the girls earlier. But the voices doesnt came from the ladies. It came from the disabled toilet which is juz beside the ladies toilet. We sense something fishy is going on. So we silently stand infront of the door so that when the door is open we can peep thru wats behind the door. We paused for a moment when we open the door hold our breath n peep thru. We almost burst into laughter but we control it. We slowly close the door n run back to the girls. Upon reaching here the girls were waiting nervously for us, we burst into laughter as we couldnt resist any longer. The girls were confused. We took quite sometime to cool down n we told the girls what we saw. Guess what?? The noise that we heard all this while came from the disabled toilet and there was a couple inside making love. As soon as we revealed this all of us burst into laughter. So the girls decided to check it out themselves while we continue laughing. They did the same as how we did it. They take a quick peep and ran back to us bursting into louder laughters. We thought of recording a video of them but we dare not coz we cant resist laughing.
Minutes later the couple came out of the toilet not realizing that they are being peep at. What i dunt understand is they look in the 30s. Cant they get themselves a room? Of all places they choose a toilet at such a park to make love. The best thing is they didnt even lock the damn door. I guess they must b in a hurry and 4get bout the door. Hahaha...
Soon we get bored n decided to go the playground area pretending to be kids. We played the swing challenging each other who can swing the highest. Oh my god! The swing almost broke but it didnt. Lol. Tired of the swing we engrave our names on the sand surface. Then we chat, exchange jokes, discuss our KL trip, share hot topic. Julie 'mati2' wants to know my secret. She try veri veri hard to guess it. Haha.. I cant tell u now. But one day u will know it. Not at the moment. ;p Peace!
At about 11:15 we have to go separate ways. Some of us including me got to report to work at changi. I mean changi cargo. Not changi BEACH!!

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HISHAM
H	Harum
I	Ikhlas
S	Suci
H	Harum
A	Amanah
M	Mesra
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