Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Yes i let u go but we still need to sit down n talk things out between ourselves so that i feel good to let u go in a nicer way for me to move on. But u refuse... U r adamant.. U r running away from problems. You take the easy way out after u done some mistakes. U knew ur mistakes but u juz dunt want to admit it. Ur ego was over u.

And to the peeps involve, especially F... Thanks eh.. I oredi told u not to interfere wif my problem but u have gone way too far. I give all of u guys the same text msg and you are the only one who says "count me out". So dat means you refuse to listen to my heed. And as a long time buddy i expect you to juz give opinion and advise and not to give her a suggestion or freak conclusion to end her problem. Wat is ur intention of suggesting a 3rd party policy. I ask her and she reply so that she have a reason to let the other two go easily. Lame okay Lame!! I knew u wanna take ur chance and see if u could get her.... Hey! she is not Aida okay. Dunt make her look like Aida coz she is not for rolling among all my friends! Wat are you trying to do? You taking advantage of her by asking her out a few times behind the other friends. You tink im stupid n blind. I knew you way longer then the rest.

And as for the girl.. Do hav some pride and dignity in you. As a lady "maruah" is the most important aspect that you have to take care of whereva u go. You are juz making urself an "easy to get girl" and now all my friends are gonna have that bad image towards you, dunt you realize that. They got nuthing to lose. Im trying to avoid all this but u trap urself into a pit hole w/o u realise where you going, what u doing. You dunt see all this becoz u cant think ahead. You life is juz full of regrets everywhere and complain complain life sux life sux... why becoz u dunt think b4 u do anything. See where it come from. I told you to settle this between ourselves and u refuse you go round the bush asking people opinion and i dunno for wat benefits you got making urself more confused getting urself into more trouble. YOU ARE SUCH AN ATTENTION SEEKER!! Go away from my friends will you and dunt get them involved here. You also gone way too far above the limits of my circle of friends. You are juz creating a big chaos among my frens. You are making a lot of people involve and you are the spark that causes us to fight between ourselves and have a sour friendship that we held for a long time. You selfish attention seeker!

I build this trust in you and i build this trust in F and this is what i get... You F****** climb over my head. You will get back wat u give, dunt worry.

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Thursday, October 22, 2009

Dunt pretend to care for me if you dunt really care for me.
Dunt pretend to love me if you dunt really love me.
Dunt pretend to be happy wif me if you really not happy being wif me.
Dunt pretend to be honest wif me if you really not honest wif me.
Dunt pretend to give me nice words if u dunt mean it to me.
Dunt pretend to make promises if you really cant keep those promises.
Cause it hurts, really hurts................................................
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Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Afterall the tussle and exchange of words, it all ended unexpectedly without any clue what hit us or rather me.. It was like a Tsunami hitting the town unexpectedly. Right after my birthday and after a few days of thinking, i finally give way. As a gentlemen, i give in even though i know that i could have fight for her. But im know im not in a position to do so and im not forcing her to make the decision go my way. I did not pressurize her but i have to remind her time and again when she gonna called it off after all those promises she made to me. I understand her, i know her from deep inside. I hear every thought and every dream she wanted and even gave her wings if she wanted to fly. I be there wherever she needs sum1, a shoulder to cry, words of encouragement, a pair of ears to listen to her if she needs sum1 to talk to and even trust her like a passenger trusting their pilot. Most of her wish are granted. I treat her like a Princess and there it fade away like a ghost disappear into thin air...................

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Monday, October 12, 2009

You dunt need to compare between me and him. He simply juz let go of your hands and have another relationship with dat girl. And now that he knows he lost the girl, he came back for you. What does dat mean? You call that loyalty?! If you wanna have prove that they are in a relationship, i have their pics wen they are with each other. I felt that he made you like a re-bounder since he fail to get that girl. So you are willing to forgive him easily for that. He would not have done that if he really loves you and be loyal to you. Enuf said.. THink wisely in a bigger picture will you.
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Saturday, October 10, 2009

It is almost the 5th month we been together including a 2mth distant relationship. Within that short period of time, there are so many ups and downs of our relationship.

My dear, juz remember that i was there for you when u need sum1 the most. When you need sum1 to talk to, to listen to ur problems, to listen to ur dreadful lonely life, to give u some piece of advise, lift u up and give some motivation and encouragement, make ur mind forget about ur problems. The full attention i gave to you might have overshadowed "HIS' ability to guide you to the future you would dream of. Like you said you do not want ur life to be similar to how ur mum suffered. I remember those words you gave me. That you will do anything u can to make this relationship work between us. And you have found the right man u want to be for the rest of ur life. The one who could guide you and give the fullest attention you need. We enjoy our life together right from Day 1 our first meeting at the airport until now. Every time we met, the strong feeling between us can be felt and we almost afraid of leaving each other even out of our sight. The Love bonding was at itz very best.

Then came a day where suddenly i felt sumthing was not right from her body language. You began to open topic bout him and ask get info bout his whereabouts, his status, his life. Began to feel concern for him.

I was left alone wondering wat will happen to me next. I have given my all to her. I even nurse you when u are suspected H1N1 when every1 else in ur family run away from you. And i was there giving my best to make sure u get a job as soon as you step into Singapore and i know i achieve that.

And now here i am fighting all i can to hold to your hands tightly, stay wif me and not back at him. I juz have to be strong and be patience and juz accept wat her decision was. Even though it is hard to bear hearing it but dis is what i have been waiting for all this while. I cried almost every day but i will be crying the loudest upon hearing the decision made.

My Love, My Heart

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Sunday, October 4, 2009

Buzy Days......

Itz Hari Raya and i hardly have time going out visiting my friends home dis year. Have to cancel my outing wif them on the 1st Oct due to a company which offers me a job. Have to cancel the class gathering too which i planned due to the same reason. I have no choice but to choose my career first as my priority.

Aniwae.. Bike broke down again. And im back to public for the meantime till i got it fix. Should i let it go and get a new bike? Or repair it? This bike brings a lot of memories for me.

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